My blue eyes pricking with tears
Lips desiccated like a dry leaf
Chin quivering with a rhythm of a flapping bird
A lump in my throat ready to burst
Hands trembling with fear
The tears drop like a leaking tap
Salty water fills my mouth
I whisper I need you, I need you now.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Reflective writing
I chose to journal about a very tough day full with mixed emotions. I decided that the long journey returning to England after being away from family and friends for six months would be the perfect day to reflect upon. I actually had no idea how I was going to be feeling and what direction my mood would be in which made the task more interesting. After the day was completed I brainstormed all my emotions and came up with one word after reflecting on the day- LOST
Journey part 1 - Walking away from the ship (in Singapore) I felt free with butterflies in my stomach. I was thinking that this is it, I have completed the (what I like to call it) prison sentence. I kept thinking about the new cast arriving and somebody else sleeping in my bed which made me feel a little uneasy. I noticed that some people found it awkward to say goodbye whilst others were very larger-than-life.
Journey part 2- At the airport I seriously had the giggles which I am convinced was to shadow how tense I was truly feeling. I was acting very silly and one of the main events was going into duty free and trying out every face cream on my face (don’t worry it was a tester).
Journey part 3- On the 14 hour plane trip I sat between my two close friends who had completed the adventurous contract which waged war on our emotions. I decided to write about this part of the journey from the perspective of one of my friends. She was very quiet and composed which is extremely out of character. She kept looking out of the window and when I asked her what she was thinking she said she felt no emotion and almost empty inside.
Journey part 4- When I returned to Heathrow airport my long term boyfriend was waiting in the arrival lounge and I felt a wave of tears run though my body. It’s strange as I didn’t know my body and mind would react like that. I was very surprised with myself as normally I don’t cry that often and I’m still not even sure why I responded like that. “ It is through the sensuous world of the body, though the eyes , ears, skin, muscles, and organs that we see, feel and respond to all that happens” (Tufnell and Crickmay,2004).
Journey part 5- In the car I was very quiet as I felt peculiar inside. Almost like I didn’t really belong anywhere which made me feel uncomfortable.I kept getting phone calls from friends and I struggled to speak as I felt apprehensive and not myself. “In the rush and pressure of our everyday lives we easily become numbed and cut off from our bodies” (Tufnell and Crickmay,2004). I tried to make sense of what I was feeling and I believe it is only natural to feel misplaced and anxious as I hadn’t seen my boyfriend, friends, family and English weather for 6 months!
After having done this exercise I learnt a lot due to reflecting on my day. I was counting down days to return home and I thought I would be in a state of ecstasy however I have learnt that change makes me feel perturbed.
References- Tufnell and Crickmay,2004- Reflective Practices Reader-2010/11-http://libguides.mdx.ac.uk/data/files4/133687/Reflective%20Practices%20Reader.pdf- Accessed 11/11/10
Journey part 1 - Walking away from the ship (in Singapore) I felt free with butterflies in my stomach. I was thinking that this is it, I have completed the (what I like to call it) prison sentence. I kept thinking about the new cast arriving and somebody else sleeping in my bed which made me feel a little uneasy. I noticed that some people found it awkward to say goodbye whilst others were very larger-than-life.
Journey part 2- At the airport I seriously had the giggles which I am convinced was to shadow how tense I was truly feeling. I was acting very silly and one of the main events was going into duty free and trying out every face cream on my face (don’t worry it was a tester).
Journey part 3- On the 14 hour plane trip I sat between my two close friends who had completed the adventurous contract which waged war on our emotions. I decided to write about this part of the journey from the perspective of one of my friends. She was very quiet and composed which is extremely out of character. She kept looking out of the window and when I asked her what she was thinking she said she felt no emotion and almost empty inside.
Journey part 4- When I returned to Heathrow airport my long term boyfriend was waiting in the arrival lounge and I felt a wave of tears run though my body. It’s strange as I didn’t know my body and mind would react like that. I was very surprised with myself as normally I don’t cry that often and I’m still not even sure why I responded like that. “ It is through the sensuous world of the body, though the eyes , ears, skin, muscles, and organs that we see, feel and respond to all that happens” (Tufnell and Crickmay,2004).
Journey part 5- In the car I was very quiet as I felt peculiar inside. Almost like I didn’t really belong anywhere which made me feel uncomfortable.I kept getting phone calls from friends and I struggled to speak as I felt apprehensive and not myself. “In the rush and pressure of our everyday lives we easily become numbed and cut off from our bodies” (Tufnell and Crickmay,2004). I tried to make sense of what I was feeling and I believe it is only natural to feel misplaced and anxious as I hadn’t seen my boyfriend, friends, family and English weather for 6 months!
After having done this exercise I learnt a lot due to reflecting on my day. I was counting down days to return home and I thought I would be in a state of ecstasy however I have learnt that change makes me feel perturbed.
References- Tufnell and Crickmay,2004- Reflective Practices Reader-2010/11-http://libguides.mdx.ac.uk/data/files4/133687/Reflective%20Practices%20Reader.pdf- Accessed 11/11/10
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Reflective journal
I am back from the bumpy seas of Asia and I can frankly say I feel like I have been mislaid somewhere as it feels so strange to be home. I have been looking through everybody’s blogs for the past hour and I am so impressed and inspired that I am looking forward to getting stuck in with the second part of the course.
I have been writing a journal for the past two weeks which has had a positive effect on me and has encouraged me to make the most of each day. The contract I have just completed was rather tough and at times I felt like part of the machinery on the ship! Everyday was basically identical from the food to waking up looking at the same faces, so writing a journal and reflecting on each day was very motivating. I have been reading Cery’s blog on “Journal writing” and I can really connect with her statement that “Life happens so quickly and we are always looking forward to the next thing that sometimes we forget to take the time to look back” I am a prime example of rushing through life. On the ship I done a countdown chart which I would mark of at the end of each day, but after 50 days of doing this I realized I am actually wishing my life away. I am a massive thinker and analyze everything and I can remember thinking to myself why do I feel this way, how can I make my time on here better and what can I learn from this experience. So without even realizing it I was reflecting! Each contract is a new experience, another chapter in my life to reflect on to see what was right for me and where I should aim to go next. “Turning experience into learning.”? Boud (English and Gillen,2001) I completely relate to this as I believe everybody learns from their experiences and that is why (most of the time) you don’t make the same mistake twice. You are constantly learning because of experiences you have on a day-to-day basis. One of the schools I teach in I have a energetic but sometimes difficult child and I was very strict with him in my first class which actually made him rebel more. I reflected upon this experience and I learnt that maybe I should be calmer and praise him more and guess what this worked a treat!
I feel writing a journal is going to benefit me greatly, as after an audition or a class I always reflect on what happened but I feel writing it down will help for it to become clearer. Also the environment and kind of work that I do can make you think too much. I believe recording your feelings is very beneficial as I have had sleepless nights worrying about organizing dance events, auditions or thinking am I to fat or to small. Puzzling through my feelings on paper will make me have a deeper understanding of what I want, and how I am going to get it, instead of all my feelings being locked up in my head.
Cery Dixie Blogspot-http://cerysdixie.blogspot.com/2010/11/journal-writing.html- Accessed 10/11/10
Boud (English and Gillen,2001)- Accessed 10/11/10
I have been writing a journal for the past two weeks which has had a positive effect on me and has encouraged me to make the most of each day. The contract I have just completed was rather tough and at times I felt like part of the machinery on the ship! Everyday was basically identical from the food to waking up looking at the same faces, so writing a journal and reflecting on each day was very motivating. I have been reading Cery’s blog on “Journal writing” and I can really connect with her statement that “Life happens so quickly and we are always looking forward to the next thing that sometimes we forget to take the time to look back” I am a prime example of rushing through life. On the ship I done a countdown chart which I would mark of at the end of each day, but after 50 days of doing this I realized I am actually wishing my life away. I am a massive thinker and analyze everything and I can remember thinking to myself why do I feel this way, how can I make my time on here better and what can I learn from this experience. So without even realizing it I was reflecting! Each contract is a new experience, another chapter in my life to reflect on to see what was right for me and where I should aim to go next. “Turning experience into learning.”? Boud (English and Gillen,2001) I completely relate to this as I believe everybody learns from their experiences and that is why (most of the time) you don’t make the same mistake twice. You are constantly learning because of experiences you have on a day-to-day basis. One of the schools I teach in I have a energetic but sometimes difficult child and I was very strict with him in my first class which actually made him rebel more. I reflected upon this experience and I learnt that maybe I should be calmer and praise him more and guess what this worked a treat!
I feel writing a journal is going to benefit me greatly, as after an audition or a class I always reflect on what happened but I feel writing it down will help for it to become clearer. Also the environment and kind of work that I do can make you think too much. I believe recording your feelings is very beneficial as I have had sleepless nights worrying about organizing dance events, auditions or thinking am I to fat or to small. Puzzling through my feelings on paper will make me have a deeper understanding of what I want, and how I am going to get it, instead of all my feelings being locked up in my head.
Cery Dixie Blogspot-http://cerysdixie.blogspot.com/2010/11/journal-writing.html- Accessed 10/11/10
Boud (English and Gillen,2001)- Accessed 10/11/10
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Enhancing your career!
Due to being registered to LinkedIn a casting director that i worked with five years ago has managed to contact me. This just proves that professional networking sites do enhance your working career and helps market yourself to the correct people.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
A new improved Personal profile
I sucessfully auditioned and was awarded a three-year scholarship at the Italia Conti Academy of Theatre Arts in London, gaining a diploma in Performing Arts.
I juggled a heavy training schedule whilst performing in numerous shows including ‘Top Cat’ at Wimbledon Theatre, pantomimes
in Chesterfield and Lincoln, ‘A Shakespeare Tour’ and danced at the Royal Albert Hall.
I graduated in 2006 and began work immediatly on the P&O’s luxury cruise-liner The Oriana where I played leading roles in the
seventeen various shows.
I have shown a wealth of diversity by performing in shows such as ‘Las Vegas’ at the Birmingham NEC, ‘Mother Goose’ by Bruce James productions and ‘Peter Pan’by Chris Mareno Productions. I was a regular performer at the exclusive London Hilton Hotel, I have featured in the Heart UK video and entertained football fans at Wembley Stadium. I also spent a Christmas season performing ‘Crazy Girls’ in a luxury hotel in Milan and I am now sailing the Asian Seas on a Costa Cruise liner. Since late 2009 my image has been used all over London to promote West End Theatre Tokens. This was my first published modelling job which is a new skill added to my repertoire.
I recently qualified as a teacher with the Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing with an Honours award, I specialise in Street Jazz, Modern,
Disco Freestyle, Hip-Hop, Musical Theatre, Commercial Jazz and Salsa. Having been asked to produce educational materials for teachers of dance in schools,I have a demonstrated a respected and tested approach to teaching.
I recently started my own business titled "Performing Sports" which is rapidly growing successfully . It is an educational programme for school children which focuses on different areas of physical activities and dance.
I am ready to excel at the next challenge in my life; education within dance. With my interest within the dance world so strong the next step
should be to explore something I can use with the talents I've gained.
I juggled a heavy training schedule whilst performing in numerous shows including ‘Top Cat’ at Wimbledon Theatre, pantomimes
in Chesterfield and Lincoln, ‘A Shakespeare Tour’ and danced at the Royal Albert Hall.
I graduated in 2006 and began work immediatly on the P&O’s luxury cruise-liner The Oriana where I played leading roles in the
seventeen various shows.
I have shown a wealth of diversity by performing in shows such as ‘Las Vegas’ at the Birmingham NEC, ‘Mother Goose’ by Bruce James productions and ‘Peter Pan’by Chris Mareno Productions. I was a regular performer at the exclusive London Hilton Hotel, I have featured in the Heart UK video and entertained football fans at Wembley Stadium. I also spent a Christmas season performing ‘Crazy Girls’ in a luxury hotel in Milan and I am now sailing the Asian Seas on a Costa Cruise liner. Since late 2009 my image has been used all over London to promote West End Theatre Tokens. This was my first published modelling job which is a new skill added to my repertoire.
I recently qualified as a teacher with the Imperial Society of Teachers of Dancing with an Honours award, I specialise in Street Jazz, Modern,
Disco Freestyle, Hip-Hop, Musical Theatre, Commercial Jazz and Salsa. Having been asked to produce educational materials for teachers of dance in schools,I have a demonstrated a respected and tested approach to teaching.
I recently started my own business titled "Performing Sports" which is rapidly growing successfully . It is an educational programme for school children which focuses on different areas of physical activities and dance.
I am ready to excel at the next challenge in my life; education within dance. With my interest within the dance world so strong the next step
should be to explore something I can use with the talents I've gained.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
YouTube
I had so much fun completing my YouTube video. I have included the maximum number of tags allowed to ensure it is easily accessible. I hope you all like it?
The link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1TFCwue2o4
The link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1TFCwue2o4
Monday, October 18, 2010
Silly me!
Hey everyone,
How do you hyperlink text so the reader can go straight to another website?
I have been looking on Google help and I'm struggling a little bit!
Thanks x
How do you hyperlink text so the reader can go straight to another website?
I have been looking on Google help and I'm struggling a little bit!
Thanks x
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